Surrender

What a loaded title. To give some back story - On the second night of the conference our pastor told us to think of a word that represented the trip for us personally. I went to the service that night and as I was thinking about what my word would be I was drawn to the song, 'I raise my white flag, I surrender all to you'. I realized quickly what my word was, but didn't know why until the next night.

So if you think about surrendering in war - it always has a very negative connotation, like you are a weak traitor. But if you think about war, from the perspective of the person surrendering - they are choosing their best option. At that time they realize that whatever lies ahead in the others hands is better off than where they are right now. Where they are right now is no longer worth fighting and dying for. The unknown is finally better than the know.

In my life I am ready to surrender. Where I am heading right now is no longer worth fighting for, my life in the hands of God is much better. This takes a three-fold aspect in my life.

Surrender the Past: As I mentioned in the last post, the last year was pretty rough especially December. So first off in this route of surrender, I have to let go of my past. I have to give it up and let it go. I have to stop dwelling on it and blaming myself for past events. They are done!

Surrender the Present: In my life this mainly is my thought process. My present is the day I am currently living - which is what life is made of. If I cannot surrender my present, I cannot surrender my life. So I will make a conscious effort to daily alter my thought process, and live my day as one that is free. One not guided by my friends, or by society.

Surrender the Future: This part is the hardest - it requires getting of the couch of 'I'll do what I'm meant to do, once I figure it out'. It's very comfortable to not make a decision and not do anything with the excuse of trying to figure it out. So the future is out the window in planning. If I surrender the present, ie the day then my future will be great. I will be living intentionally.

I'm not exactly sure how to 'do' all of this, but this is revelation one from the conference. So I will keep you posted on this route to surrender...